November 28, 2014
I was heavy with fear when we can home on Wednesday. Hearing the word remission was a bit anticlimactic as we then heard what lies before us. As a mom, it’s hard to hear that April will be a hard month. I just want to fast forward time and tackle April right now. I can’t. It’s only November. That just bugs me. I’m in the business of problem solving, managing my family’s affairs, doing what I can today to make tomorrow better, and my hands are tied on this one.
As a child my mom used to tell me I needed to take every negative thought captive. It didn’t make much sense to me then, and it still doesn’t make total sense to me now. But I know when I catch myself stuck in negative thoughts, I say this verse to myself…
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” 2 Corinthians 10:5
Right now, this childhood lesson applies to my thoughts of fear. Fear of the future, fear of Theo’s health, fear I won’t respond fast enough when something goes wrong. When I have a negative thought like that, I have to go back to the basics. Through prayer and scripture, I ask the Lord to give me some context and some relief.
I know from reading my Bible that fear is not from God. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, “For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” I also know that fear is a waste of time and energy. Matthew 6:34 says, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Last, my mom’s verse in 2 Corinthians tells me to force my thoughts to obey Christ.
If I am going to obey Christ, I first need to know what He is asking me to do. We are spending time this weekend reading over a summary of the 50 commands of Christ found in the first four books of the New Testament. The sarcastic side of me wants to say, “Jeez, by the time I even just read over this list, I will forget what I was afraid of in the first place.” But maybe that’s the point.